I am not a super avid blogger, as some of you know, but I am quickly becoming fascinated by it. I just realized why I am drawn to it . . . sometimes I just like to log onto my own page and read my own life, I like spending time there---my life looks so simple on the computer. Everything is neat and orderly, everything stays where I put it. The girls are dressed, hair done, clean, smiling--captured at their best--no one is fighting, crying, whining, sad, dramatic-- Each snapshot a bright moment. Music I enjoy is playing.
Reality. Not so simple. Busy. Unorganized. Everyone needs a piece of your time, attention, talents. NOTHING stays where you put it, at least not for very long. And the next day . . . I do it all again--run. But some days, I don't think I'll win the race, run. All day long--but it is not enough. But Mom, can't slow down, she is too many things, to too many people.
And then, we get to Sunday. The day of Rest. No. Just a different kind of running--so much responsibility. All of my Young Women. Can't let them down. Just breath, pray--hope God is listening today.
Simplify. Where? How? What can possibly be cut out? Have to do everything.
I really am alright. Just overwhelmed. I am sure, I am not alone--life was not meant to be easy. I think God is helping me grow-it hurts. I like being small and simple, but He needs me to be more. And I am trying.